Greece

I know it's been ages since I've written anything here but I don't usually have much to say. The things that I do have to say is mainly about my love life (how sad is that, I'm revolving my life around some guy >_<) and that's over in the other blog.

Anyway, this time, I have to talk about my trip to Greece. There's so much to say that I think I'll just throw everything in, boring or not.

Firstly, let's start off with the incredibly long flight!!! 22 hours omg!!! Give take that is... starting from the moment we stepped into the airport till we left the one in Greece. The reason for it being really REALLY long was the fact that we couldn't get enough direct flights for the group (our group consisted of about 24 people, but overall about 50 people or so went for the trip). So we ended up making a few transits. From KL, we flew over to Singapore for a transit, followed by another in Dubai, and a short stopover in Lanarca. It didn't help that we were held back in Dubai for an hour because 2 people didn't get on board the flight and for security measures, they had to identify the luggages belonging to these 2, and remove them.

My first opinion once I landed in Greece? Wow... the airport's kinda small. It wasn't small like Nepal, the facilities there seemed reasonable enough, the building was modern, but I suppose it was small in the sense that we asians tend to think highly or expect more from European countries. But Greece seems like a pretty quiet country from what I've gathered over the past week or so. I left last Thursday on the 2nd of June and only got back this afternoon (Thurs, 9th of June).

Anyway, I had a different impression of Greece. For instance, I never expected all their historical monuments to be right smack in the middle of their city of Athens. I always though that it'd be in the outskirts of town. But Acropolis (which means 'Top of the Hill' ^_^) is right in the middle of the heart of Athens. Athens was named after the Godess Athena. I learned some stuff about their history, such as how Athena won the battle for the city against the God Poseidon (Neptune) (I can never remember which name's Roman, which is Greek). Apparently, they had a battle by making an offering to the people of the city something which may be of use to the people. Poseidon, with a strike of his trident on the sea offered sea water. (How lame is that >_<) Obviously that wasn't needed since Greece is an island surrounded by sea water. Athena offered an olive tree, which became the symbol of Greece till today (they're known for olive oil and other stuff).

Okay, enough about the facts... back to the trip. The stuff there, especially all our meals costed a fortune after the conversion of currency. They've switched to the Euro which is roughly about 1 Euro = RM5. The cheaper main dishes was about 10 Euro per dish but sometimes they were around 20. And that's only the main dish... >_< There's also the appetizers, desserts and drinks! But there's always bread served. And the servings are usually huge!

I haven't got much recollection about the trip (yes, even though I just got back from there) on the parts where the company organised for the benefit of the media. Oh, just a note, our group consisted of a few company workers (dad's company), a lot of journalists from various papers and their spouses. There was the trip to Acropolis to see all the historical monuments, which was ok, but after awhile all the stones seem to look alike. I was more interested in hearing the stories behind them and the myth of the Gods but our tour guide wasn't very informative. I guess it was because our tour was a short one.

The interesting moments started when I met Shalimer for an outing. Shalimer is one of the blogger friends that dad has been communicating with. She takes up temporary jobs, some of them being working on ships and caring for some of those big homes (or mansions, not too sure) for some people. She's a Philipino with Greek citizenship if I'm not mistaken... she grew up in Greece and has been living there since she was 15 (although now she hardly spends time at home because she's usually travelling or working in other parts of the world). There's also her husband Marcus, a Swiss chef (apparently he has worked for famous people before on occasions, such as Tom Hanks) but he sometimes takes jobs on ships as well... perhaps that's where they met?
Anyway, some of the there were some events and meals which I wasn't supposed to be following mum and dad too, coz I'm just tagging along for the trip, not paid for by the company. That day, after lunch, there was some ceremony thingy going on and I was supposed to be spending the afternoon and night alone in the hotel. Shalimer invited me for a tour around Athens and perhaps even some shopping ^_^. Unfortunately, it was a Saturday and apparently the Greeks don't really open their shops after 3pm on Saturdays and the entire day on Sunday... it's their rest day =) So we walked along some shops, but only to look around (window shopping, it's not like I could afford anyhting anyway, most shoes costed about 100 Euro omg, but I suppose it was also coz she took me to a higher class district). Then we sat down for coffee, which is what the Greeks do! They don't need shopping malls (they don't have them coz most businesses in Greece are small family businesses). If you want to be seen, you head over to cafes and spend the day chatting with friends over a cup of coffee! During the winter, they drink Greek coffee (thick and in a tiny cup) and in the summer, frappe (shaken with a thick layer of froth).

Next stop... Lykavitos, which is the highest hill in Athens. We took the cable car up. Apparently, this hill wasn't used to build monuments are wasn't used to guard the city because the top was sharp as opposed to Acropolis which had flat land at the top. All they have is a chapel and cafe/restaurant. The view's really lovely from the top. Sha showed me the various areas such as where my hotel was, where she lived and other little things. We saw a few churches/ chapels as well (the one on top and one more while we were walking around) Most of them are orthodox churches. There's so many around!!! If you walk around, there's one after every few streets. The greeks are very religious. The churches look really nice, the ones I went to had intricate designs and paintings on the walls and ceilings. Sha also explained to me stuff like how their weddings take place.

After that, rather than taking the cable car down, we walked down back to her place. It was a nice walk, the air's pretty cool even though it's summer, probably coz we were quite high up. She lives in a small 2 bedroom appartment (or 3, can't remember >_<) apartment. It's quite cute, and I think although it's small, in terms of the residential homes there, it's probably considered big, since there are probably a lot more studio apartments and so on there. Met Marcus there...he's a really great guy. Sha treated me to some of their seasonal fruits there, which at that time was apricots, peaches, cherries and honey dew.
After that we went for dinner taking the bus along the coastline to (if not mistaken) the northen suburbs of Athens. The meal there was fantastic... the best I had since I landed. Sha prides herself in knowing the best places to eat without having to spend too much on the food ^_^ We had tzatziki which was a yogurt dip with garlic and cucumber, kavtotiri a soft cheese and pepper dip, a lettuce salad, paidakia - grilled baby lamb cutlets and biftekia, meatballs. The meatballs were nice, better than the ones mum had for lunch that day and so was the lamb. But I really loved the dips. For the first time, I was having REAL traditional greek food. Before that, we always ate in Plaka which was a tourists area and according to Sha, they mainly twist the traditional food there to suit tourists' tastes. I also learned how to eat the food properly. The bread served is usually eaten with these dips (which can be ordered as appetizers), rather than eaten plain or with olive oil as we have been doing before that. Man I had a great time ^_^. After that we walked around looking at the shops, and she was telling me stuff here and there. We took the tram back (something like an electric train but the tracks were built on the roads. I've also sat on the trolley which was kind of like electrical busses.

Okay... so that night I got back and was really tired. Next day was Monastirarki!!! They have flea markets there and is extremely busy on Sundays. It was fun walking around but most of the stuff there were tourists stuff... souveniers and others. I bought first of all, a simple necklace using a wire to shape my name in greek (I don't think it will last long but it was unique and only 4 Euro). Then I also bought another necklace. This one I really love... it's handmade, made from silver (that was the cheapest, 30 Euro, I would have preferred silver and gold mix but that was double the price). Once again, designed to form my name, but in Hieroglyphics (ancient form of egyptian writing). I've been wearing it since. Mum also bought a pendant. A silver coin with Alexandros with a simple gold ring around it. Then, my family also boughts small souveniers to give away, mainly olive soaps, keychains...

Next day, we visited 3 islands, Poros (a small quiet island), Hydra (Sha and Marcus's fav =P nice buildings, had milkshake and ice cream there) and finally Aegena (known for pistachio nuts). We sat on a cruise ship taking us around these island... the food on board pretty sucked >_<
But the dinner that night was fantastic. We went to Daphane's, I very famous place where a lot of well-known figures eat. I shared with mum mini lamb slouvaki (little kebabs) for appetizer and a mixed grill (prawns, salmon and scallop) for the main dish.

Last day, which was this morning, my family met up with Sha and Marcus again. We walked around the local market and shops (the ones with all the daily needs, not shopping shops =P) It was fun... learned quite a bit. Some of the butchers in the shops started putting refridgerator displays at the market due to EC requirements but they don't bother turning on the electricity lol... they don't really want those things, but due to the EC, they have to. I also learned how Slouvaki is made there... they have this little box with long straigth holes at the side. The meat is semi frozen and placed inside, then the sticks are poked in and the knife cuts along the holes so that equal cubes of meat comes out. The freaky thing about the meat being sold there are most of the lambs/cows/goats etc are skinned and hung up with their head still intact. And you can see their eyes bulging out... gross! And the little bunnies... poor little bunnies. They're skinned but u can still see their furry tails behind! I also learned that when picking octopus from the market, if they're really fresh, when you place ur hand on them, they still suck so they stick to your hand ^_^

We went to lunch after that, where the owner picked out some stuff for us to eat based on what he thought would be best. I remember the tzutzaki dip, and another dip made from roasted aubergines. Then there was the grilled octopus, fried calamari and prawns ^_^ Yummy!!!!! We were also given a small shot glass of Ouzo. When he served us, he said, "Don't smell, just drink, bottom's up!" LOL... I guess it wasn't as bad when you drank it that way, coz you don't taste it as much.

Just a quick update...

I think we're pretty much considered to be a couple now. After having told him about possibly being hit on by another guy, and having a long talk (rather he was the one talking and I was just wondering when I could run off) about him not wanting me to wait for him, we somehow came to the agreement that we were really together ><. Weird yeah, there were so many twists and turns that my uncertainty about us changed to being confirmed wanting to wait for him at least for awhile to get to know him better, and then wanting to break up again, and finally being confirmed to be a couple. Ah well.... c'est la vie.

CY, Kogila, Montha and I had dinner at Telepon =) Had a great time there. Ate 2 ice creams, the 2nd one being extremely large lol. There goes my diet once again.

My birthday came and went... surprisingly had quite a number of well wishers this year. Birthdays are something that tends to slip past quietly usually for me. Jin wasn't aware that he had actually called on my birthday, and still isn't. Ironically, he thought we were the same age (I'm a year older) and had he called the day before instead of having lost the phone card, the question of the age, had it been brought up then would have a different answer. He still isn't aware of my birthday because I haven't mentioned anything about it yet to him. I don't think I plan on doing that.

I'm growing quite fond of him, I think... but I wonder how much of it is just play. One thing I can never tell about online relationships or friendships is that you don't know how true or how real anything is. Even I can't tell if my own feelings are real. I do yearn for him in a way but is it just cause he's not here? I'm wondering if our, or at least my feelings would have been different in other circumstances. No distance between us, no waiting period, no fascination of opposite attractions. I guess I'll only have more answers after we actually meet up.

Oh yeah, I finally got some photos of him. He really is the wild type, so unlike me in many ways. The first photo he sent had his face painted =P It was taken in some sort of birthday party. I don't think I'd do things like that, or I might but boy, will I regret it in years to come! Especially if there's physical evidence of having done it, exposed to the world to see! The other photo really gave me an impression of him being a gangster lol. Serious sulk, laser-shooting eyes, cigarette in hand.... hmm, really just a bunch of small indications that would make one think that he was going to beat the crap out of someone. Constantly, he keeps asking me whether I could fall for someone like him. Technically, I already have but I suppose it would have been pretty hard had I known him in person from the start. I suppose I am shallow... he admits to not liking people who judge books by their covers. So how would I fit in? But anyway, knowing him for who is first before knowing who I would have thought him to be makes me feel even more affectionate about him =)

I think I'd be swept of my feet over such a guy if he remains the way he is now. Although generally, my head pretty much tells me no such thing is going to happen. One thing I admire about him though is the way he follows his heart more than his head. People like him, in my opinion would probably live life to the fullest.

*Hearts Aflutter*

Heheheh... that's my current online status.

Let's see... things have been moving along quite fast. At the beginning, I really did have a lot of doubts about Jin, apart from his 'history', there a lot more. Our huge differences, he's in Aus, I have Zera (which was techinically a diff issue once Jin said he was more interested in a personal level)... generally, I think that I was feeling really scared of him. Most of the time, I felt that I would rather be a friend then anything closer because it'd hurt a lot less from that position.

But after awhile, I went on to think that I really did like him. And I can't stand the idea of having to be so uncomfortable with him over this issue. I've been avoiding him for that reason and it just seems silly, sometimes I have to force myself to PM him just to tell myself how stupid it is. Most of the time with him, I try to play it cool, in hopes that he would just give up, but he never changes. He's still the same charming and sweet guy that I keep falling over for ^_^. So at one point, I just threw everything aside (not literally though), and thought about giving it a shot with him. Even if it ends up with a disaster, and me being hurt (which is such a big fear for me), I wanted to take the chance and at least experience a period of bliss =)

It was quite funny, I really didn't know how to tell him that I've changed my mind, and I just wanted to do something wild and whacky. Even to the point that I was considering saying it straight out, asking him to be my bf =P I spent the whole time in class thinking about him and what to do, and was going to do it through an sms. I'm not sure if it's fortunately or unfortunately, but apparently he can't receive sms from overseas. So he never got my starting message.

When I got back from class, I think i chickened out of the idea. What I did instead was to propose to him LOL. This is getting silly. I started of being mean by just announcing to him that he was invited to the wedding between Calv and I though. My priest would be marrying his merchant. Calv wanted to marry his priest to my merchant to but I rejected that. Anyway, Jin was like...'Oh'. And I felt really bad at doing that, but I wanted to do the next part of proposing to him. And I asked him if he would like to marry my sin. I wasn't prepared for the meteor shower he was about to throw at me right after that. Rejection alone I could handle but how he said it was like throwing one meteor at me after another. After the whole day of thinking about him and wanting to make it work, he got me confused again. He said he didn't want to hurt me. And something about being a horn dog who can't be tied down (this was like a real slap in the face coz it's one of my biggest worries). Then he added a few more things... After that, I just didn't know what to say. I kept quiet or played cool most of the time.

Some time later, just as I was about to quit RO, he messaged me again, asking to meet him in Byalan with my sin to give me something. I honestly thought it was just gonna be another present. But what a shock I received when I got there. He did a really long and romantic proposal, got on his knees, said he was sorry about what he said earlier and gave me a diamond ring ^_________^. And all my reaction was at that time was "..." LOL. But although it was romantic, I guess I couldn't get his previous words out of my head so I had to ask if he really was sure about what he was doing. And having said that he was, we're gonna get married =)

We spent the next few hours just sitting there and talking, about the things he did for me and to avoid me (making a priest, sitting down when I'm with him coz I like the way a priest sits, leaving the guild coz he didn't like having to see his name on top of mine everytime) and I told him my parts as well. I was being honest when I said that he made my heart flutter. He just puts a smile on my fave everytime I get a message from him. I think a lot of feeling came pouring out at that time. He was telling me that suddenly, I'm not acting with the 'jual mahal' attitude I always have =P
We both realise that this is problably not going to work out though. His words were like, this is like a train ride, and we know it's going to crash, but we both just can't help it anyway. Instantly, I thought about how I wanted to be with him even though I know it would most likely not work out. So I was telling him that I'm aware of the crash, but I wanted to give it a shot because I figured that the ride with him would be worthed it.
We got to know each other a little more by just sitting and chatting, finding out what common interests (very few) and what differences exists.

When I think about him, I feel that my whole life, is a pretty straight road. Quite predictable... although not entirely accurate, I pretty much know where I'm headed. I've made very few departures from the main road throughout my life. The biggest departure was for Ozee. He was another one who clashed greatly with my life, and yet, he was also the one who taught me a lot. He pointed out a lot of new things that I've never known and never felt. Being with him is something that I don't ever regret but there were quite a number of downturns during that period as well.
He made me decide that my next boyfriend had to fit in better. I had a lot of expectations from who I would want to spend my time with together. I never expected that Jin would just enter into my life and threw it all away again =) I'm worried that it might be the same problem though... falling hard for someone but always thinking at the back of my head that he could never really be the one. Only because I'm afraid of letting someone too different to enter too closely into my life to have a great affect on it. It was hard with Ozee, and if things go well with Jin, it'll probably be hard for me again. How do you tell someone you love that you don't want to continue for a long time only because of some personal insecurities? I've always been afraid of things like this in my life. I've taken very few steps to actually approach my fear and face them like I do to some other issues.

But anyway, for the moment there's really nothing to think about. We're just hanging about each other, talking on the phone (I called him up again ^_^)... personally I'm thinking about him almost all the time, dreaming about what it'd be like to meet him, and wondering where this is headed. But one thing for sure, he really has manage to plaster a smile on my face =P I feel happy when he laughs, and it's quite funny coz I tell him not to laugh at me. And then he scolds me for saying that coz I don't want him to be sad but when he's not sad and he's laughing, I tell him not to =) Okay, I'll let him laugh at me all he wants but inside my head I'll probably be whacking on the head or something =P Right now, I'm longing for a hug from him. Whether or not I'll get it eventually is something we'll just have to wait and see. But I really really hope to be able to get it ^_^

Happy Birthday Jin

Hmm.... funny how things work. I spend the whole day with him on my mind, a smile on my face and at night, I wait eagerly just to see him online.
And yet, when I finally do see him, all that was spoken was just a few lines. And then we both went off... I guess it didn't help that I said something stupid like 'sometimes you make my heart flutter'. Which was kind of true... and yet, it is not something one needs to hear. After that, we both just didn't know what to say, so I decided to work on my assignment, and he said he wanted to go to sleep. *Sigh...
I forgot to tell him that I wanted to owe him a birthday meal though ^_^ Hehehe, hours and hours after I supposedly left to do my work, all I did was read a few pages and lay in bed. Can't focus (this is bad... if I got hooked on to another one of these things again, I can wish my grades goodbye yet again), so much for aiming to finish 2 assignments tonight. Even if I stay up till dawn, I'll most likely be able to complete only 1 of them, the easier one >.<
Anyway, just thought I'd add in the reason behind my smile for today (apart from Jin himself ^_^):


Anyway, my birthday is coming. I can't wait... not because of presents or parties (since none of these things really exists when it comes to my birthday) but our group, Kogila, CY, Aneeta, Montha & I have been gathering four birthday celebrations at that Telepon buffet BBQ Steamboat place. It's always great fun, just grabbing food, screaming at the smoke, chasing for ice cream despite being stuffed up to our ears with food and just chatting the night away. It's something that I really look forward to. So far, Kogila, CY and I have confirmed our spots ^_^ Just need the other 2 and we're set! Looking forward to watching the JLo movie Shall We Dance as well. Not too big a fan of hers but an occasional romance dance type of movie seems like a good spoonful of sugar for my heart LOL. Well, not so sure about that but I do want to watch it.
Oh, and given a choice, I think I'd love to drag Jin out to that BBQ Steamboat place for dinner. Hardly romantic but always a great place for a good time =)

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I find that most of the times, I don't really have my to write about in here. After all, how sad can you seem, if your life revolves totally around an online game?

However today, a lot seemed to have happened. Even if it's still just my gaming life, I feel that this is something I would seriously like to remember ^_^.
But an update on my real life, I've gotten accepted by my 2nd company for a industrial training position. Although I've already accpeted a position with KPMG, it's still nice to know that EY has offered me a position to train with them.

For the past few days, I have been wondering. Am I still attracted to Zera? It's nothing to do with being attracted in real but obviously, it would help since he's my RO bf. I don't really spend that much time with him these days. Although I would say that it is because he's always leveling so seriously, and I don't want to disturb him as it might make him lose a life, I have to admit that it is also my fault. I don't have the net capable to keep up with him, and most of the time, being laggy, I hardly play my main characters that are more closely linked to him. But sometimes, he still makes my heart skip a beat. For instance, when he asked me to take a walk with him in GH yesterday night. It brings back some cute memories off how we used to sit together in Payon Caves with all the zombies around, or sit together in GH with other undead monsters ^_^
But, I miss a lot of things that we used to do together. He'd make me happy just by doing small little things like, when we're playing together and his cafe is closing, he'd rush off to find another cafe that was still open. It may not have anything to do with me but those days always kept a smile on my face.
And then, I think a lot changed when he came back to Malaysia. I have to admit to being extremely eager at the prospect of meeting my RO bf. He called me from the airport, we talked for a few minutes before he said he had to end the call. He was running low on credit rather quickly. After that, I think he may have tried to call me a couple of times but I wasn't carrying my handphone. And so, I waited eagerly for days, because he said he'd come down to KL (he's from Ipoh) on the day before he leaves. On the last day itself, not having heard from him, I guess I was very pissed and disappointed. I wanted to end our relationship and leave his guild, but I just acted as if nothing happened. Although I do admit that I was acting a little cold.
He told me that he tried contacting me a few times but to no avail. He's gf had 'kept him a prisoner' in Ipoh because he was only back for a few days and she didn't want him to spend a day in KL. I have to admit that sounded quite funny, but after that I realised that he was only an online bf, it's just a game. I have no rights to him at all. I t kind of taught me a lesson not to place hope on anything and anyone in the game, and enforced my belief that I should maintain the 2 lives seperately for the fear of getting hurt. I was also rather surprised to hear about the gf bit, I thought he was single. He may have been referring to his ex, or he may have a gf, until now, I haven't approached him on that subject. Personally, if I know for sure that he has a real gf, I wouldn't be his RO gf because it just doesn't seem right, it feels like I'm a 3rd party in between the 2 of them.

Anyway, since the incident, I guess I haven't really been too close to Calv... sometimes I want to sit down and talk with him but it doesn't really happen. The small, short periods that I do get to spend with him is still nice though. But today, when my friends ask me what he got me for Valentines, or when people ask about the marriage system, I really just don't know what to think or say about it. It seems like some of the other presents I got had more thought put into it... and marriage just doesn't seem to be the right idea. I doubt even Calv wants to propose in the first place.

So anyway, in the picture walks Jin. I think I've mentioned how we've met. Although I'm not too clear about the event myself. But recently we've been spending time together. I find him fascinating, and attracted to his (what he claimed to be) his 'bad boy' attitude. The attraction lies more to being highly intrigued by his wild life, so unlike mine in many ways. However, I always felt that he was someone I enjoyed talking to and when he told me about his life, I'd laugh over it. But had I been in the position of being a part of his life, it wouldn't be funny, it may be perhaps painful to live, especially in the context of his gfs. He had 3 of them, although only one of them was partly serious, simultaneously. And he even labelled one of them as not really a gf, just a 'f*ck buddy'. Hearing about it makes me so :-S or >.< but not really in a bad way. But I did pity his gfs.
Anyway, things went wrong, somehow something happened and his serious gf broke up with him, apparently she was cheating on him as well. Then he broke up with the other 2. And he was telling me about how he had to spend CNY alone, and later Valentines and his birthday as well (the day after Vday). I guess i kind of pitied him and really wanted to cheer him up. And so I concocted a plan for his birthday. I got his phone number from Scott and planned a surprise bday wish at 12am on his bday ^_^
Anyway, Valentines day, just before the day ended, I went to see him in GH. Zera had been MIA pretty much the entire day and I just felt like I needed his company. A lot of things had happened right before then which I might enter into the next entry but not here. Anyway, when I met him, I got a nice surprise =) 1 chocolate, 1 bouquet, and 1 romantic flower. I was thinking about rejecting the last one but it was valentines day and it just seemed like something that would make me really happy then. ^_^
Anyway, at 12pm, I was sitting next to him in GH, and I called him on the phone... I couldn't help it but giggle a lot especially since I was just asking him (in the game) about his birthday wished from friends, and he said he hadn't had any yet. He was so blur, hadn't a clue about what was going on, who this stranger was and why she was wishing him happy birthday, not saying anything much but a sudden 'Bye'. So he messaged me in the game telling me about it. All I said was... want me to do it again? And then he was like.... YOU??? LOL!!! That's was so funny.... he kept going 'Do it again..again...' but I didn't. Malulah...
I just wanted to be able to put a smile on his face, even if it's just for a short while, like he has done me so many times before. Anyway, he later spent about 2 hours making me a present, also for Valentines, and I have to admit.... it's like the sweetest present I ever got. It was a drawing and a poem. And recently, I guess I've just started developing feelings for him, despite my warnings to myself that he really is not my type at all (This is before today, so it has nothing to do with the present).
Then later, we were chatting together when we teased each other about how much he sayang me and all, and I him, which I wouldn't admit to doing. And then he told me not to jual mahal too much or else he might also (coz I said it first) get bored of me. So I told him, I partly wished for that to happen, hence the whole conversation about why and what is going on and other things.
Anyway, the deal goes, we both like each other, but we are aware of our differences, and that I do have an online bf. At first he said he would keep a distance, and I told him not to worry about it, but he later added it was not only for my sake but for his :-S Hmm, that was really thought provoking. We talked more later, and after quite awhile, he suddenly said he wouldn't stop and the only thing I could do was to bar my characters from his. I really didn't know how to react then. T_T I really didn't want to but my head kept going, breaking up with Calv is definately not an option, I wouldn't even allow the thought of it. So after a long period of silence, I just told him to go to sleep. I seriously planned to bar his chats at that time. But he later said, he would stop, just give him time. I think the part that surprised me most was how he was saying that he was not interested in us as in the gaming part, but more in a personal sense, after I used Calv n Moon as an excuse. But he refused to delve into the topic and I didn't really want to talk about it either. Anyway... I don't know, nothing's going on atm, I've sent him off to bed ^_^ I like his latest status on msn though, but I guess it doesn make me feel a bit uncomfortable, it goes 'Steal, steal everything oso steal. Stolen alreadylar!!...Happy now? Let's go punch that marine sphere then'. It's so cute, it's referring to the time we were in Byalan. I was using my sin and since I had him as my walking potion, I didn't worry about getting hurt so I used steal on every monster around lol. That's when he kept saying steal steal, everything oso steal. So I stood next to him and said ... its' not working, cannot steal from you. Then he asked what I wanted to steal and I replied his heart ^_^

I told Ozee about the incident but he seemed distant, didn't really have much comments, and was quick to leave me and went off to bed. I guess he really didn't want to hear any of it, so I'm really sorry about that. Furthermore, there's Moon. I was chatting with him on msn today and he admits to still liking me, but it was quite a light topic, didn't seem to have any meaning behind it. He told me how he worked hard to improve his English lol =) I guess it was really sweet of him, but it's still a bit hard to understand though ^_~ But overall, he has a very nice personality and would be a nice bf to some girl out there who can click with him. I also found out something new.... he has a status on for so long, in thai, and I finally asked him today what it meant. He told me it means 'I really like you'. And to my surprise, it was actually referring to me (I didn't have a clue because I didn't know thai at all, obviously, so I wouldn't have known the meaning, and I was pretty sure the status came out after we broke up). His new status states (I'm not sure if it's for me again or not but it might be) something about not being the one but at least he tried hard... Hmm, it has changed again and I don't really know the latest one since it's in thai again I think. Oh, and later in the game, he mentioned again that he still likes me and asked if we could get back together. I turned him down of course, he has a gf now and I have Calv. But it's was just a light thing, we were just fooling around =)

Alright, this has been a really long entry and I should have been finishing my assignment which I started at 10pm, and it's 7.15am atm. All I've completed are 2 paragraphs. It's going to be a long day ahead...
I better end here, I also want to write about kessy, neal and jack but since it has nothing to do with me, I'll put it into the next entry when I have the time to. ^_^

Muahaha... I'm back!

Funny how it is that I tend to post entries during exam periods.

Well, got a mid-term today... another tax paper. Haven't completed studying for it yet (not even close). Just thought I'd pop in here and take a look. I just realised it's been months since I last entered anything. The last entry said something about Xmas pressents... lol. It's close to CNY now. Hmm... and Valentine's too ^_^.

Things have changed a lot. Especially in RO. OMG, I can't believe how much drama can come out of one little game. I've been asked by around 5 guys to be their gf, an ex-admirer told me about how his gf has another bf who is also my RO brother, I keep getting into arguments with Neal over partying him... and loads more stuff. I love the life there but even this game can give me stress >.<

Oh yeah... going through my last few posts, I didn't mention yet that 'the Malaysian guy' Zera is now currently my RO bf. Hehehe... he's another one who brought a lot of drama... or maybe it's the other way round, me causing havoc in his world. After we got together, both Moon n Sweet had been all over him about 'stealing me' from them. That was kinda funny. But it's all over now. Sweet kept declaring wanting to guild war against Zera's guild (my first permanent guild!!!) but yesterday he asked me if his new guild could alliance =P LOL!

I'm still all hooked on Bigs... but I think he's still a little mad at me. I ditched him during a leveling party a couple of days ago to party Neal. That was totally my fault... that little incident caused both sides to be mad at me. Bigs coz I left him quite unexpectedly, and we hadn't even been partying long before I had to leave. And Neal, coz I assumed he was offline when I promised to party him (I forgot to PM his priest), and then later leaving Neal's party as well when I got tired of dying repeatedly in HO CT. Oh, and Neal made me cry... bah, I hate it when I get all weak and sensitive. But he accused me of avoiding him and lying to him about leaviong the party to tank someone else. I wasn't lying. I was tanking Jin. >.<

Hmm... as of date, Jin's the latest interesting person I've met online. I don't talk to him as much though. But I kinda like the way we happened to have met. Oh... he's another Msian yeay !! I dunno wat it is about them except of course that we're all Msians but I love meeting Msians on ORO. I wish Flea would be able to pop down here one of these days too ^_^ I'd love to bring her around although she probably wouldn't need a guide since she was here before :P

Oh well... study time. I'd love to keep a journal on my events on RO... there's so many things that i wanna record. Small details and slightly dramatic ones :P I think when I'm over the RO phase, I'd probably love to go through these things and go WTH was I doing back then???? =P

Of Ragnarok addiction........yes, again

So far I've pretty much spent at least 70% of my holidays on RO. Gaming, surfing the websites, getting RO products... geez, I'm sinking deep into the addiction hole again.

But it's getting to be more fun than it ever was before. Back at ERO, I had a few friends here and there, sometimes stuck to a usual group. But here, I seem to be meeting people everywhere. Of course, this has its pro and cons.
On the happy end, I'm constantly having 1 group or 1 friend to be with at almost all times. I get to jump around knowing I'm always with someone. I get to sit around and chat, which is basically what I do most of the time anyway. Meet interesting people. Hmmm, I guess it's kinda nice to know that someone out there likes you enough to want to walk to you =)
On the con side however, I'm getting way too addicted. I sit behind the PC almost the entire day, both mum and dad are getting pretty pissed with my attitude. I only pop out of my room for some food, and occasionally make an appearence downstairs although I get bored quick enough and leave. Then there's the problem where I might be doing something wrong when I lightly flirt with guys on RO. I mean no harm, guys do it to me too. I just didn't realise that some might take it seriously. I'm not sure how serious, but if Moon is willing to buy me a prepaid card, that's already too serious for my liking. /swt.

The funniest thing happened though. I accidentally flirted with the wrong guy =P Not totally wrong, just that, RO is safe in the sense that when I flirt, it's totally anonymous. These people are aussies, or kiwis, highly unlikely I'd ever meet them. Even if I wanted to that'd be kinda hard =P So there came the time when I made a slight mistake. A priest said to me... "What are you doing sitting there?" outside of Payon. All I could think of was "Waiting for you to hit on me". It was cool at first, I tanked his merchant and then he tanked my aco... so all's fine. Just another friend on my list. But then... horror of horrors, he led me to think he was and aussie...from Perth! Same time zone and all... when he was actually a Malaysian /swt. What a scary thought. When I merajuk after finding out, he even said he'd call me on the phone to pujuk =P *sigh* cute but that's why Malaysians are a no no =P

The biggest problem for me now is the xmas present situation. Too many people to give presents out to T_T. How am I going to afford them? T_T (must stop crying! Scott accuses me of crying too much LOL) The idea was pretty simple at first.... I only had to give about 3-5 presents. But now, I'd feel guilty if I didn't give them out to the others. I haven't even made a list out yet... which I need to, coz I don't want anybody left out.

Oh well, update on the whole RO situation. Neal or B1's the latest friend I have that I constantly want to chat with although I'm pissing him off with my attitude =P Flea's kewl, but I hardly get to talk to her, even less so now that I've left both her guilds. Scott's constantly missing, his PC's screwed up again. Moon's being sweet, but really possesive that it annoys Neal, kinda funny though. Kev, sweet boi, is strangely enough bumping into me more than Moon is. But he's always trying to guard me from other guys for Moon... but I found it funny that they were trying to see who got to me first. LOL. I wonder if it's supposed to be funny or insulting? Haven't seen mister_frodo in quite a bit. Maybe coz he's always partying my other account so he doesn't know much about this one. I think the last one to name would be zeradevil, or zeradestructor... or watever his nick is. It's long and confusing...*sigh* That'd be the Malaysian guy, I know nothing about him though. But he's always around at specific times and I'll probably see him around.

Ok, I guess that's all. My life must be pretty pathetic to spend an entire poting on RO but I can't help it. That's all I do these days and that's what makes me really happy these days.